09 November 2010

لا تقطوا من رحمة الله


39:53
Sahih International
Say, "O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning], do not despair of the mercy of Allah . Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful."
Malay
Katakanlah (wahai Muhammad): "Wahai hamba-hambaKu yang telah melampaui batas terhadap diri mereka sendiri (dengan perbuatan-perbuatan maksiat), janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah, kerana sesungguhnya Allah mengampunkan segala dosa; sesungguhnya Dia lah jua Yang Maha Pengampun, lagi Maha Mengasihani.

Salam..

its been quite a while I guess, since i've ever wrote something here..
to sum up, after a glorious summer break, i went back to continue my studies
in an another new trunk of medicine.
i have to go by the final two years of medicine as a student, the fifth and sixth years.
InsyaAllah it'll go well till the end.

speaking of which, it really seems that i'm about to finish this hell of a kind to study medicine.
a lot has been achieved and a lot of things had happen along the way.

here's the main thing i wanna stress upon,
from the above verse from surah Az-Zumar,
Allah mentions ...
"..لا تقطوا من رحمة الله" "..do not despair of the mercy of Allah.."

in easy words, don't lose hope with Allah..
for he is the one and only place we should return to in times of despair..
and the only one we should ask help and put belief to...
so no matter how untrustworthy you are, how sinned are you...
seek and ask forgiveness from Allah.

though also remember, never to betray Allah after always receiving his blessings.
its just like a couple in love...lets say the girl would always want to receive his lover's 'gifts' of all sorts, namely chocolates, flowers, treats, and so on. the girl on the other hand would always treat his lover so badly like demanding expensive things, always come late to promised occasions etc.
if i was the boy, i'd just leave her and find another lady...
*btw, nobady's perfect i guess, a lame example huh..heheh, but take what's good

Rasulullah said to us in the 19th hadith of An-Nawawi's forty hadiths
"..Be mindful of Allah, and Allah will protect you. Be mindful of Allah, and you will find Him in front of you. If you ask, ask of Allah; if you seek help, seek help of Allah..."


I have always thank to Allah for what He has given to me..
being able to still continue medicine and more importantly to continue my life in this world.
A lot has changed since last year's incident. I can say i'm back like i was before, I think.
depends on what you fellow friends think..

All we can do right now is never to lose hope to Allah, as Rasulullah said
...احفظ الله يحفظك..
do what you're supposed to do, and Allah will grant your wishes insyaAllah..
Akhir kalam...lets benefit this early 10 holy days of zulhijjah...Allah promises us with
His great rewards InsyaAllah...
- ceramah sikit, ma'leish-
wassalam

25 September 2010

Sami Yusuf - You Came To Me


Sami Yusuf - You Came To Me

You came to me in that hour of need
When I was so lost, so lonely
You came to me, took my breath away
Showed me the right way, the way to lead
You filled my heart with love, showed me the light above
Now all I want is to be with you
You are my one true love, taught me to never judge
Now all I want is to be with you

CHORUS
allahuma salay alla sayiddina mustafa
ala habibika nabika mustafa

You came to me in a time of despair
I called on you, you were there
Without you what would my life mean
To not know the unseen?, the worlds between
For you I’d sacrifice, for you I’d give my life
Any thing just to be with you
I feel so lost at times by all the hurt and lies
Now all I want is to be with you

CHORUS
allahuma salay alla sayiddina mustafa
ala habibika nabika mustafa

Showed me right from wrong
Told me to be strong
Need you more than ever ya rasulallah
You came to me in that hour of need
Need you more than ever ya rasulallah
You filled my heart with love, showed me the light above
Now all want is to be with you
You are my one true love, taught me to never judge
Now all I want is to be with you

CHORUS
allahuma salay alla sayiddina mustafa
ala habibika nabika mustafa

21 September 2010

HEALING - Sami Yusuf


It's so hard to explain
قد يصعب عليّ أن أعبر
What I'm feeling
عمّا يختلج في قلبي
But I guess it's ok
لكن اعتقادي
Cause I'll keep believing
ينبع من إيماني
There's something deep inside
هناك شيء في الأعماق
Something that's calling
ينادي
It's calling you and I
يناديني ويناديك
It's taking us up high
يرتقي بنا إلى الأعلى


CHORUS:

Healing, a simple act of kindness brings such meaning
الشفاء ... قد يتجسّد في عمل بسيط لطيف
A smile can change a life let's start believing
بسمة قد تغير حياة الإنسان
And feeling, let's start healing
فلنبدأ بعمل يكون فيه شفاء


VERSE 2:

Heal and you will be healed
شفاء بشفاء .. ومع كل شفاء شفاء
Break every border
اكسر القيود والحدود
Give and you will receive
اعط تُعطى .. فالعطاء يوجب عطاء
It's Nature's order
نظام كوني رباني
There is a hidden force
هناك قوى خفية
Pulling us closer
تجذب بعضنا لبعض
It's pulling you and I
تجذبني أنا وأنت
It's pulling us up high
تجذبنا للأعلى


CHORUS:

Healing, a simple act of kindness brings such meaning
الشفاء ... قد يتجسّد في عمل بسيط لطيف
A Smile can change a life let's start believing
بسمة قد تغير حياة الإنسان
And feeling, let's start healing
فلنبدأ بعمل يكون فيه شفاء


MIDDLE 8:

Hearts in the hand of another heart and in God's hand are all hearts
قلب بين يدي قلب و بيد الله كل قلب
An eye takes care of another eye and from God's eye nothing hides
عين ترعى عينا .. وعين الله ترعى، و لا شيء عنه يخفى
Seek only to give and you'll receive
إسع نحوالعطاء... و ستلقى و تعطى
So, heal and you will be healed
إشف.. و سوف تشفى

OUTRO (x2):

قلب بين يدي قلب و بيد الله كل قلب
عين ترعى عينا، وعين الله ترعى
كلمة طيبة صدقة
تبسمك لأخيك صدقه
كل معروف صدقة
اللهم اشف شفاءً لا يغادر سقماً

Song Name: "Healing"
Written and Produced: Sami Yusuf
Lyrics co-written: Dr. Walid Fataihi
Mixed and Mastered at Andante Studios

20 September 2010

1 month later and then bye2...

salam..

hey..we meet agian..after a long vacation around my hometown..
really had a good time here back at home...
met lots of people..and did a couple of things...this n that n bla2...

well to sum up, what I did was...
1. elective posting at Serdang Hosp.
2. paint the living room green with my bro. Shafiq.
3. did some maintenance workup for my house.
4. balik kampung for Raya and some garden work.
5. met people and stuff.

that was all..perhaps..maybe some other things I didn't mention.
like always good and bad things happened..but I enjoyed my stay..

tomorrow i'm off back to egypt..to continue my studies..
thanks for all the visit u guys gave me...
alhamdulillah i'm much better this year compared to a year ago...
i'll rate myself, i'm back to normal..alhamdulillah..
i'll going to egypt eith full throttle to grasp back what i can really achieve..
insyaAllah...
k guys..wassalam...

20 August 2010

doubt..

you know what...i don't if i'm going to Serdang hospital again or not..
by right it will my last week, next week...so the 3 weeks elective posting in surgical department
has almost ended...

learned quite a few things...didn't had a chance to do any procedure..just observing
but I guess thats okay...
but seriously..soon when ure an houseman, you really need to know how to present a case to the Dr...presenting the case clearly to the specialist and consultants...under ure MO's supervision.

i guess, in doing the procedures, you need to have a lot of practice doing it..coz its a real basic thing that you should really know and have to do...
again one of the important things that you need to have is...
the skill to establish a good rapport with patients and nurses...not to forget to have a good relationship with ure MO's and specialists..

so, overall, I gain new experience..got to know new friends from UPM and CUCMS..see how the life in hospital works..
got to see what a houseman should be prepared of..before serving the people..
AND you really need to have good manners..and good confidence when presenting the case and during dealing with patients
or else you're in big trouble soon...hehehe..

okay..i dunno what else to write...
happy ramadhan

08 August 2010

AWAKEN my friends

a piece from the awakening by Maher Zain
renungilah...


We became individuals without a soul
Despite the heat
Our homes felt so empty and cold
To fill the emptiness we bought and bought
May be all the fancy cars
and bling bling make us feel satisfied
My dear brother and sister
It's time to change inside
Open your eyes don't throw away
What's right aside
Before the day comes
When there is no way to run or hide
Now ask yourself
cause Allah is watching you'
Is He satisfied?
Is Allah satisfied?

I'm walking with my head
(lowered in shame for my place
I'm walking with my head lowered for my race
Yes, It's easy to blame
everything on the West
When in fact all focus should be on ourselves)x2

05 August 2010

thanks

salam...

we meet again..just wanna share a couple of words or two.
what I heard from an ustaz from his lecture.
its about thanks..(syukur)..or more precisely being always thankful to Allah
for what He has given us so far...much have we achieved in our lives since we were born to life..

ever wondered..why we're still living and breathing the life's essential oxygen..no matter if your a muslim or not...no matter weather your a good muslim or not a good one. your still living and doing things of what ever you desire...
Allah the All-Mighty..most gracious and most merciful...
we recite it every now and then...
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
In the Name of Allah, The Most Beneficent and The Most Merciful

Allah has never been cruel to us.
giving us the five senses, pair of arms and legs, a brain to think, the animals, trees, microbs, and the list goes on and on till you get arm cramps listing all of them..
there's just so many things Allah has blessed us with..

for the last 3 weeks i got to follow the ophthal. Dr's follow up a patient with severe endophthalmitis. She complained of severe pain. so severe until she even couldn't sleep at night.
she was admitted to the ward that time.

so I asked the Dr. how they managed the case??.. it was just like in the textbook, we do medical treatment..and if the condition do not resolve, we have to cut the eye eviscerization (dunno how to spell, hehe)..so they did treat the eye medically..up till..in dunno, this week, i came, and she had a patch in her eye...

ahh i knew it, they've cut the eye
the patient could't stand to tolerate the pain and decided to to cut the eye last saturday, leaving a single eye that could still function.
may Allah bless you makcik Azita.

alhamdulillah I said to myself, "i still have both eyes"..it taught me a big lesson...to control my sight and control what i see..
yeah..we have to look away from seeing HARAM things..and use the eye for the goods.
cause we all know, in the hereafter (akhirat) each of our senses will speak by themselves about what they have been used for. If its good, then the outcome will be good. if its bad, then what you get back is bad.

so friends out there, just used what Allah has given us wisely, apa yang Allah telah amanahkan kita dengan baik..and always repent to Allah for the sins we've done..
wassalam...

Empire - Superclass

24 July 2010

room 38 & 41

phew..one whole week finally ended...
seriously, being a Dr is not that simple..
you certainly need to have the knowledge,
knowledge about medicine certainly...
also all sorts of skills...
including..
> how to do clinical examinations
> how to interact with patients of all kinds..
- from an infant to elders
- man or women
- all sorts of races (Malay, Chinese, Indian and others..)
> how to related systemic illness with the presenting one
> Differential diagnosis...subsequently ure provisional diagnosis
> plan of treatment and treatment...
>...and so on...

so dear colleagues, when u have time, go to hospitals. watch and learn what a doctor do and act towards patients. supaya kita bila kerja nanti tak kekok bila practice medicine. :)...we're all still learning..so gather as much while ure still a student..to prepare for upcoming job...
dah3..cukup setakat tu, cuma nak tulis experience bila pertama kali attach dekat hospital...terasa diri sendiri bengong and kekok bila Dr suruh amek patients history and present..but anyhow, i'll keep on trying to improve myself...

so what i've done so far in the ophthalmology clinic..?
1. use an ophthalmoscope/funduscope to do the
light reflix & red reflex
test for RAPD
see findings on the fundus
2. interview some patients..but sucked!..heheh..
3. learn new things about clinical ophthalmology
4. oral-like questions from the Dr
5. see a eye-Laser procedure
and some other stuffs...tk ingat..hehe

bottom line, i've enjoyed the week really well..
lets get ready for d coming week...
tata~

p/s,
room 41 is the active clinic where the patients are seen by M/O's,,
while room 38 is the clinic where I attached with Dr Rozita, the Ophthalmologist..

21 July 2010

Serdang hospital, day 2 n 3rd day

salam..

yesterday i attached with Dr Ho..a nice femali Dr.
she taught me couple of new things...
also did lots of things, again i did the red reflex, light test and
test for RAPD..

she showed me to use the funduscope and the slip lamp...
amazing thing to finally to it by my self..
a lot of chit chat troughout the day...
anyway, at the end of the day, i got to further improve my skills..
a useful skill i learnt is, ...knowing how to deal with young patients...
like school aged children and under-5 years old child.
seriously we need to have those skills..macam cakap lemah lembut..
bagi sweets ke to make them cooperative...
also you need to talk to them in a very childish way...i don't know if male Dr do the same..cause i've only attached with female Dr's...
but never, hope to acquire the skills later on..

that say, pukul 3 dah mintak Dr nak balik...sebab rasa kepenatan even though duduk dlm clinik ber-air-cond. je.
so that was the 2nd day

3rd day..
again in the same clinic, this time i was with Dr Mazaya.
some Q&A today...
M/O tu kate ade exam dalam masa terdekat ni..untuk smbung buat masters..
the same routine today...screening patients and seeing new cases..
the new thing for today...Dr Mazaya showed me how to use the ophthalmoscope to see the fundus..yeah i did see the optic disc..but it wasn't that clear...
i did it only once though..maybe i could do it again some next time..

another Dr I attached to day was a ophthalmologist consultant..
Dr Rozita...she's a very2 nice doctor...
like professor's back in the university, she asked me lots of questions...
primarily about Diabetic retinopathy and the optic nerve pathway..
well I answered the questions..but not that well..
ye la..sape suruh tk study...ingat tak ingat je jawab...
but she said my answers was OK...so she gave me a homework..

"balik baca pasal Diabetic retinopathy and visual pathway ye, nanti saya nak tanya"

..gulp..so..balik kena bukak buku ophthal and prepare .. macam ready untuk exam tu..
but, i think Dr takkan nk marah kot. bukannye periksa ke ape..

ahaa..today i got to see the pan photocoagulation prosedure for a case of diabetic retinopathy patient...new wxperience!!..so happy...
then after, we had a nice chat dfor a while..exchange experiences...
Dr Rozita siap suruh jadi ophthalmologist lagi, die kate sebab sangat kurang lelaki yang amik specialist ophthal..hurmmm, i'll think about that

quote from her..
'the eye is the window to the brain'..

u can also see the naked vessels from the eye...thus could give a picture to what ever diseases happening elsewhere in the body...
contohnya...SBE...

okay2..tu saja mau cerita..
mau tdo..wslm

20 July 2010

Serdang hospital, day 1

Semalam, elective posting kat Ophthalmology department begins.
Memang tak ada prepare ape2, mcm baca buku opthal ke ape..just gamble je pergi hospital..

That morning, I went to hospital serdang alone, by myself.
Dah check jalan kat Google Map…lagipun, tahun lepas ada pernah datang kat sini untuk Physiotherapy, so ada cam2 la sikit hospital ni.

Anyway nak cerita, mula-mula nak kena lapor diri dulu di hospital.
But at that time, tak tahu nak lapor diri kat mana, so tanya dekat kaunter perndaftaran , mana tempat Unit Latihan. Akak tu bagi arah, kat pejabat pentadbiran, tingkat 3.
So I went there and gave my borang and gambar, she said nak buat kad hospital. It was 8.30am.

“okay, so ade kena pakai name tag la ni”. After that, I went to the ophthalmology department.

Awal2 memang blur, sebab tak tahu nak jumpa siapa. So I took a walk around the department.

“cool jugak tempat ni, nice and clean” .

Pusing2 5 minit, jumpalah abang ni, En. Azlan, pembantu perubatan kt dept. tu. So I told him about me and my purpose being here in the ophthalmology dept.. then he took me for a walk around the dept. and introduced several Doctor’s to me.

I was supposed to meet the head dept. Dr Razlian, but he was not around. So I met Dr Rosniza, the deputy head dept.. She assigned me to the active clinic, where it receive new cases and follow up cases. Okay, that’s nice. So I’m attached with the M/O in charge there, Dr Masyitah.

It was a hell of a day, from 9.00 until 5.00, recess in the middle 1-2. Ramai betul patient. Dr cakap, sebab hari Isnin, sabtu ahad cuti, sbb tu la ramai. Anyway sronok jugak sebab dapat jumpa banyak patient. From child to old patients with all sorts of eye problems.
From my observation, most patient came with conjunctivitis, either viral and allergic. most of managed by giving artificial tears. Other than that, I always see patients with foreign body in their eye.

So did I did the???
Well dapat guna ophthalmoscope untuk examine patient. Buat Red reflex and swinging light test untuk check RAPD. First time dapat pegang ophthalmoscope, jadi sangat kekok. Apa lagi, kena minta tolong Dr ajarkan la cara2 guna ophthalmoscope tu. Terpaksala, sebab kt U, belajar theory je banyak, practical kurang. Other than that, ada dapat peluang guna slit lamp tengok patient nye mata, Dr ade tunjuk 2-3 kali la findings yang Dr jumpa.

Ada sekali tu, Dr sruh amik history patient. Caranya lebih kurang je macam yang dah belaja dulu. Tapi sebab lame dah tinggal and tak revise baik, kekok jugak la. Banyak kali Dr mencelah and betulkan cara2 ambik history. Memang terasa sangat inferior sebab tak cekap ambik history. Then Dr suruh present kt die apa yang dapat daripada history taking tadi. In english.
Arghh hancur2..hehe. padan muka, sape suruh tak study sebelum pergi.

All and all, sronok dapat duk kt hospital and tengok patient. Dapat kenal selok belok cara kerja kt hospital di Malaysia. Penat seharian di hospital, walaupun duduk hospital je. Tapi sronok dapat develop clinical skills and apply apa yang pernah belajar 3-4 bulan yang lepas.
Okay itu saja, malas nak type panjang2, wslm.

16 July 2010

Reunion

salam..

shafiq, the last family member to arrive...
12.30 pm..from the US..
so its a full family reunion!!!
well there was a reunion last year,
but practically speaking 'I was not around' huh...
well this year I'm all pumped up and healthy..
that's I really call it a family reunion..
dah lame kami sekeluarga berkumpul bersama...

enough with that..
this Monday I'll begin my attachment course at H. Serdang..
I could perhaps my fellow seniors there..
it'll my first experience this monday going on a elective posting in a hospital
hope it'll go fine and i'll not make a fuss..heheh

anyway, the results for the final exam will come out very soon..
so I have to prepare to face what ever consequence..
if it turns out good..alhamdulillah
of not so good, i'll just have to face what ever challenges that'll face me..
Rabbuna Yusahhil..insyaAllah khair...
wslm

08 July 2010

home coming

salam,

alhamdulillah, the fierce struggle has ended...
9 months battling my way through the fourth year,
with much obstacles facing...
but nevermind, it has ended anyway
now its time to head home...

need to buy a couple of things...
some sourvenirs and stuffs...
but don't bother those things...
they're just worldly things to make people happy..
what's important is meeting people and using the available precious time wisely..

i'm not homesick,
just wanna meet my family who's probably 'homesicking' me..
but i'd be super duper glad to be meeting them soon..
sunday's the day...
juat wait for my return
mak ayah shafiq maisarah anisah and ehsan...
au revoir

04 July 2010

[ a week left ]

mak, ayah, capek, sarah, anisah and ehsan...
sabar ye lagi seminggu...nanti kite boleh jumpa kt Malaysia...
akram ade lagi 2 je lagi oral exam...
esok..forensic and toxicology..
and hari rabu..community medicine...
then baru habis exam...
doakan kemudahan dan kejayaan menjawab periska

tamat la perjuangan di tahun 4 ni, yang penuh dengan cabaran...
dari segi mental dan physical...
alhamdulillah, perkembangan physical sangat baik...
perkembangan dari segi mental, akram menghadapi sedikit kesukaran...
tapi doa dan usaha yang terus menerus tetap dilakukan dengan bersungguh-sungguh...
akram redha dengan apa jua pemberian Allah...
Dia lah yang maha mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk hambaNya
setinggi-tinggi kesyukuran dipanjatkan kepada-Nya...
diberikan kesihatan dan rezeki yang baik...
alhamdulillah...

a brief post to my family in Malaysia.
can't wait to see u guys.
to mom and dad, thanks for everything for the continuous support.
not to forget, shafiq, maisarah, anisah and ehsan.
also a big thanks to all fellow friends for their great concern for me.
finally, to all thoses who've helped.
terima kasih...

keep praying for my success, dunia dan akhirat.
amin..

27 June 2010

tamat

alhamdulillah,

tamatlah sudah semua written exam...
aku dah buat yang terbaik...semampu tenaga usaha aku...
ada soalan boleh jawab dgn baik, ada yang sederhana, ada yang tersilap jawab...
tapi ape pun, aku harapkan keputusan yang terbaik...
sekurang-kurangnya boleh lepas tahun 4 ni dan terus ke tahun 5 tahun depan...

teruskan berdoa, moga2 pemeriksa-pemeriksa kertas jawapanku dimurahkan
hati untuk memberi markah yang terbaik...
tk mengapa, tk perlu susah hati,

Ya Allah, bantulah Akram lulus periksa tahun ini...amin...

"....kita ada Allah maha kuasa,
kita punya kuasa tenaga,
doa bebagai senjata..."

itu saja nk kongsi, wslm...:)

23 June 2010

yang terakhir..

salam..

3 papers had just made its way away....
ENT is next, the final paper....
did well for Coummunity Medicine and Ophthatmology...alhamdulillah
I pray for the Forensic paper to be good and hope for the best result..
at least I'll pass the exam and won't come back to re-seat the paper...na'uzubillah
Allahumma Ja'alna Najahan fil Imtihan...ameen..

ape2 pon, aku terus berdoa kepada Allah untuk yang terbaik...
supaya aku boleh balik Mesia ddlm keadaan yang tenang dan gembira...yay~!
insya Allah
jumpa family yang nak sangat tahu perkembangan terbaru aku
selepas setahun selepas kejadian tahun lepas...

10 June 2010

re-birth

Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah, the all kind and merciful,
still able to inhale His oxygen and eat His creations..
الحمدلله
today marks the day of my re-birth, 10 June...
how do I have a 2nd birthday???
yeah, you guys know y...

really, a lot of things have changed since then...
as I said earlier...dpt peluang seolah-olah 'mati hidup semula' ni..
alhamdulillah, sy rase byk yg sy dpt perbaiki...
and sentiasa terasa Allah beri bantuan tk kira masa...
nikmat family yg sgt2 supportive esp. mak dan ayah..family
nikmat masa, kekuatan, kewangan, and so on...
also the important thing is..nikmat kawan
I really have a frens that i know now, really cares about me...~
all of them..housemates, boys, girls...
thanks for everything to you guys.!!..
_________________________________________________

despite all that stuff,
just remember, whilst you still have a speck of life within you to still breath...
do good deeds to Allah and to others,
and leave all the the bad stuffs, things that you guys know what's bad...
repent to Allah for all the sins you've done
BEFORE ITS TOO LATE
_________________________________________________
sama-sama kita sedekahkan Al-Fatihah kepada Arwah 'Ammar
Al-Fatihah~

09 June 2010

chronology, a year ago

from what I remember
briefly, this is what happened a year ago..

-----9 June 2009-----

"hurray!! the last written exam, pharmoclogy, just ended yesterday...
still, there will be the pharmacology MCQ exam tomorrow"

"i guess i'll just take a big rest for tonight and just answer what I can tomorrow"

that night I just went through the drug book quickly and went to sleep.
tomorrow I'll have a big day, going to Ain Sukhnah,
to check and survey a nice place for the batch's post-exam holiday,
as I promised with Allahyarham Ammar days ago.

that night, I just packed up a few my things including things for a swim in the sea.
then I slept--zzZZzzz

----10 June 2009-----

after the exam, me and Aman planned to have lunch at Yemen Saeed,
for the first time, I ate a grilled lamb chop with rice... it was superb!!...I think~~
Ammar on the other hand went back home in MalikuSsoleh coz he left his passport.
then he came back to the restaurant wanting to have lunch.
I dun know, somehow we manged to tapaw a meal, either Ammar's or we ordered a new meal,
but never mind.

Later, we together with Saif(driver) and Fitri, began our journey to Ain Sukhnah.
few hours later we arrived. after some sightseeing, the motels and beaches..we went to the shore and ..mandi laut~!!! it was after the Asar prayer that time.

after having some fun swimming, we planned to head back to Cairo.
right after having the nasik tapaw we tapaw earlier, our journey home began...

then --------------------- seriously, i dunno what happened ~~~

-----10 June (evening) up till around 2 weeks before Ramadhan (in Malaysia)-----

don't ask cause I absolutely have 0% memory about what happened.

-----from then till now------

:) I am now as what you see me :) judge ureselves...

*all written are what I think I remember, if there are mistakes along the journey, plz inform, thank you.

02 June 2010

next stop

just completed the last end-round exam-ophthalmogy.
did my best, but of course there were some facts that I could not recall during the exam.
but never mind, I guess it happens to everybody..sometimes you just tend to forget huh~~~
still i have the finals to really compensate the deficits i've lost...yeah~!

a thousand thanks to all my friends who really have supported me throughout the year..
to finish medicine successfully...

ape pun, sekarang ni kne betulkan mindset and kembalikan keyakinan diri.
aku yakin, Allah sentiasa ada utk bantu aku..
bykkan berdoa, buat baik and tinggalkan dosa.
at the same time kne terus berusaha sedaya mampu..and jgn stress..
mak dan ayah, family, kawan, cikgu semua mengharapkan yang terbaik from me..

keep climbin' until you reach the top ~

01 June 2010

June

The month of event's has come~

29 May 2010

"Cinta Islamik???" (copied and pasted)

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menyalin satu sketsa dari Abu Muawiyah:

"pukul 12am;
A: ukhti,nanti kejutkan ana
untuk qiam malam ni..
...B: akhi,insyaALLAH..

pukul 4am;
B: akhi,dah
bangun ke?
A: alhamdulillah baru je bangun. Btw,jazakillah kerana
membantu ana..
B: afwan, ok doakan ana sekali ye. SALAM MUJAHADAH!!

p/s: tiada
kena mengena dengan sesiapa,renung-renungkan pro-contra nya.. "

Antara respon dari sahabat2..^_^

Abu Umar Ahmad Syarief: Hubungan yang terjalin di atas wadah yang salah, akan tetap menyimpang.
Lebih bahaya, apabila berlaku belitan Iblis. Menyangka ianya Islamik padahal mereka sebenarnya hampir masuk ke zon terlarang.

Ummu Zayd Lyn Mahfuz: “Wahai para pemuda! Barangsiapa di antara engkau sudah mampu (lahir dan batin untuk menikah), maka segeralah menikah, karena menikah itu menjaga penglihatan dan kemaluan. Dan barangsiapa yang belum mampu untuk itu, maka hendaklah dia berpuasa, karena puasa itu menjadi penahan nafsu (atau dapat menjaga dirinya).” Shahih Bukhari,no4.

Maisarah Nuruljannah Mat Isa:"Dan janganlah kamu mendekati zina,sesungguhnya zina itu adalah suatu perbuatan yang keji dan jalan yang buruk." (al-Isra: 32)

komen saya:cinta islamik hanya berlaku selepas pernikahan,sekalipun semasa pertunangan,pergaulan antara keduanya perlu dijaga,kerana pertunangan hanyalah sebuah perjanjian untuk bernikah,kita sedia maklum,sebuah percintaan yang terbina antara lelaki dan wanita tanpa ikatan yang sah adalah haram,kerana ianya menghampiri kepada zina,termasuklah zina mata,zina hati,dan segala anggota yg terlibat. Namun lahirnya cinta dihati adalah fitrah manusia,tapi untuk menzahirkan rasa cinta secara haram bukanlah satu fitrah,tapi menyimpang kepadanya,andai sudah bersedia untuk berumahtangga,bernikahlah,andai belum mampu,usahalah untuk mengajar hati dan nafsu untuk bersabar dengan berpuasa.kebahagiaan rumah tangga hanya diperoleh dengan adanya keberkatan,maka untuk ada keberkatan,ianya perlulah bermula dengan cara yang halal.perkahwinan yang terbina secara maksiat,hanya mampu melahirkan keluarga yang bergelumang dengan maksiat,wal i'yadzubillah,sama-samalah kita beringat,beramal dan memperbaiki amalan.insyaAllah..^_^

28 May 2010

Jealousy and its Cures


Salam..

its been a while since i've written anything here..
some news..
-horray~~!!!the academic session (all the lectures and clinical examinations) dah habis..
dah nak habis dah taun 4 ni ek, kejap je rase
-so its the study lift period now--till the final exams...12 June..15 days to go...
so nothin' much to do except study, study and study sampai muntah.. preparing~~ for the real challenge..ceh, relek2 sudeh (says copuk) :p
Dr Hatem said, "I believe in hard work!", but it doesn't mean that you have to study around the clock, mcm orang kate instead of study hard ..'study smart'..:))

anyway, tadi khutbah jumaat pasal dengki, kalau rajin bace la tazkirah ni,
its in english...if you have time, try to read about it

27 May 2010

Budrus

salam
an organisation that follow the Palestian-Israeli conflict, 'JustVision' investigates about how the minorities of each side Palestine and Israel fight for restoring calm in the both countries...
the film isn't finished yet, but here's the trailer: enjoy



20 May 2010

memori lalu...

salam

pagi ni teringat nak belek2 gambar yang ada dalam computer
pagi ni tgh belek2 computer,
sekali terjumpa la ganbar2 ni..
agaknye korang la yang paling banyak memori pasal ni.. sbb aku masih tak dsedar lagi.. :)
gambar2 ni dari kamera Ehmad kot..

have a look..
isk2..mak aku dtg mesir rupenye~~

mak aman pun dtg jugak..

waa..kena masuk nasogastric tube siap~~

aman dtg melawat..

ikmal jadi cikgu aman utk prepare oral exam...

sekian, gambar tk byk la..byk dkt camera korang kot...


16 May 2010

Granny Smith


hey u know what..
I just found this apple, my favorite apple long time ago...
back when I was in UK...
Granny Smith
amazingly somehow I could remember such memories..
anyway, I really like this apple,
its a bit sour yet crunchy yummy!

the bad thing, damn it costs 16 egyptian pounds per kilo here!! expensive maaa~
anyhow, I just bought 2 apples to taste and bring back memories..
why not try them..go ahead~

11 May 2010

one whole year!

10th of June is fast approaching...

07 May 2010

Imam Nawawi's forty hadith

salam

just wanna share this great site discussiNG about the forty hadith's collected by Imam Nawawi.
so what are these forty hadith's? well from my personal understanding, they are the some forty hadith's collected by Imam Nawawi that discuss the fundamental aspects and value's of life or basically how to behave and act like a good human being.

If you understand some these hadiths, then try to implement them in your life. It will be a miracle that you'll realize some of the bad habits you have will go away. Practice the hadith everyday and try to tell others about the hadiths you know. Insya Allah, Allah will grant you big rewards.

You may seem that doing so is like kinda waste of time, but you will realize and notice all the good deeds you have done in life, in the here after life (akhirat). Remember, your not going to live forever in this so called "lovely world". No matter how successful you are in what you do, you'll just eventually die. So, take time to think about this matter and how prepared are you to face god. OK enough for me to babble

By the way, wou'll have good and simple explanation about the hadiths in the following website. enjoy~

05 May 2010

updates till 5 May

salam

its been a while...
so updates about me...
- i'll say i'm 99% recovered from the accident
- its the last subject in the 4th year - ophthalmology
- its 38 days remaining till the final exam!!!
- application for elective posting at Serdang Hospital still pending
- family and cousins just can't really wait to see me again especially my mom and dad
- passport application from Malaysia seems to come in a halt, still waiting
that's all about me..

updates from my brothers and sisters..
- Shafiq in the U.S. is also returning back to Malaysia this July for the first time ever.
- Maisarah in UniKL almost finished her preparatory semester and going to fly to Australia next year.
- Anisah, she's doing fine in her first year in secondary school, SMK Jalan Tiga, BBB.
- Ehsan, 6 years old, he can read quite well now and going to primary school next year.

for those waiting to see me in Malaysia, my flight home will be 11 July, maybe arriving malaysia 12 July, see you guys then.
by the way, remember to pray for my success in the final exams..
kne study nih~~!!! tk leh memain lagik dah. Ok la, wassalam

01 May 2010

Mayday

Labour Day or Labor Day is an annual holiday celebrated all over the world that resulted from the labour union movement, to celebrate the economic and social achievements of workers. The majority of countries celebrate Labour Day on May 1, and it is popularly known as May Day and International Workers' Day, while some celebrate on the first Monday of September.

The celebration of Labour Day has its origins in the Eight-hour day movement, which advocated eight hours for work, eight hours for recreation, and eight hours for rest.

source: wikipedia

30 April 2010

BRIC

salam.

it's been a while...
I don't have anything particular to say here...
okay, here's some up dates..

- its the ophthalmology round now, the last subject till the end of the 4th year

- 43 days to go for the first paper for final exam.
so nothing much to do except to prepare for it

- just applied for an attachment at Serdang Hospital

- waiting for my new passport to return from malaysia

- its day light saving time for Egypt tomorrow, so tonight
11.59 pm becomes 1.00 am

- and nk balik Mesia dah wei!!

thats all
by the way, have a look at his
--->BRIC<---

22 April 2010

Maggi???

Invented more than 60 years ago in post-war Japan, the humble instant noodle has become one of the world's most popular snacks.

Last year more than 92 billion packets of instant noodles, an average of 15 servings for every person on the planet.

But now noodle makers are casting their eyes at a more lucrative market.

The rise of the instant noodle

16 April 2010

listen

lagu ni belajar mase klas arab tahun lepas.
kne hapal and nyanyi siap
naseb baik lagunye boleh tahan la sedap
Hayati Kulluha Lillah

blajar kat klas arab jgak.
lagu ni cerita pasal
Khalifah Mo'tasem Billah
motasem billah

lagu ni sesuai utk didengari utk student2 sumer
hayati btol2 lagu ni sebab lagu die sgt
byk menegur kite and bg smangat at times kite rase down
Saujana-takut kau tertipu

10 April 2010

10

hey guess what...

it was on this date, 2 months prior to the final exam,
the final written paper to be examined, pharmacology, was held, 10 June 2009.
as always, exam hall--answer the MCQ questions--and go home.
but that day, I had something to be done, to survey a place called Ain Sukhnah, northwest of Cairo. a place that my batch will organize a 'party' after the oral exams.

before leaving cairo, we had a big lunch at the Yemen Saeed restaurant. I had a beef steak for lunch, something i wanted to eat for a long time. anyhow, to sum up, we left for ain sukhnah, got the venue we were searching for, then we went swimming at the beach. right after swimming, we went back to cairo. but we never reached cairo!!
the next thing i know, hey i'm back in Malaysia. of course many things happened in between. and now, hey, i'm back studying in cairo.

yup, its been 10 months since the incident. how far I've recovered?? physically i'll say 99%, mentally i'm still in recovery. (korang la nilai banayk mane aku dh recover) i guess it takes time for the brain to actually regain its full recovery. the neurologist said, the left hemisphere, which was the dominant part, also the half which was most injured, is slowly been taken over by the right hemisphere. it will take time to heal.

so far so good. extra exercises has to be done to stimulate the neurons. my memory needs training to get to its previous capabilities.

okay2 dah. tu je kot aku nk cerita. byk dah aku cerita sbelum ni. bosan plak korang membacenye kang.
go go eckm!!

06 April 2010

esok peksa

doakan aku yek..
esok peksa E.N.T.-- end round exam..
go-3x, you can do it!

05 April 2010

Can the Malaysian prime minister win back supporters with a bold economic policy?

US and Iran: The best of enemies?

get the full article

click here

something to share 3

part 3/3

Situasi 2, “Aku baca buku awal-awal ni, nanti dekat peksa aku lupe jugak, kena mula dari awal balik, baek aku studu last minit”...

Rasanya kebanyakkan daripada menghadapi dilemma ini. Pendek kata, mereka yang fikir sebigini, matlamatnya hanya untuk menjawab peperiksaan, dan bukan menguasai ilmu itu sendiri. Lulus atau mendapat result yang baik dalam periksa memang penting di atas kertas untuk naik tahun atau mendapat ijzarah. Namun, selesai mendapat ijazah, berapa banyak ilmu yang masih lekat di kepala.

Betul, sebahagian pembacaan awal memang kelak akan kita lupa apabila menjelang peperiksaan. Tapi, kita mungkin tidak sedar ianya sangat membantu kerana sekurang-kurang kita pernah melaluinya (sesuatu topik) sekali lalu. Maka rakan-rakan, janganlah segan silu untuk membelek buku-buku yang berhabuk atas rak tu. Remember why and what you came here for?

Situasi 3, Situasi 3: “Alaa, nanti spot2 soklan kan ade, baca yg tu ckup la, yg tak penting tak masuk peksa”.

Renungi nasihat Dr Nada Abd Azez, “berusahalah daripada sekarang untuk menjadi seorang Doktor yang bertanggungjawab dan ikhlas dalam segala tindakan anda. Ketahuilah tugas yang anda pikul sekarang adalah tugas yang amat berat namun terlalu mulia di sisi Allah Taala”. Tanda kita ikhlas dalam ilmu ialah kita bersungguh untuk grasp dengan tamaknya segala banyak ilmu yang boleh kita genggam tak kira betapa sukarnya ilmu tersebut.

Matlamat jangka panjang dan matlamat jangka pendek juga perlu dibentang supaya kita tidak lari dari landasan agenda dalam time frame kita. Akhir sekali perbaharuilah niat sentiasa. Tugas dan kewajipan yang perlu dipenuhi seorang pelajar.

Banyak lagi situasi yang mungkin anda boleh baca sendiri di buku-buku atau tulisan motivasi yang lain yang mungkin anda sudah muak telaah. Jadi, bertindaklah sekarang wahai pemuda, hentikanlah angan-angan mega anda jika masih leka dengan dunia hiburan dan mainan suka-ria anda. Memang, usia belia sering mencari kepuasan dan keseronokkan sendiri. Tapi jangan sampai terlaku leka hanyut dengan tipu daya syaitan dan hawa safsu.

Ingat matlamat kita dalam menuntut ilmu. Jadidkan pesan mak ayah sebagai pendorong sumber inspirasi kita sewaktu kita terasa ‘down’.

Sebagai konklusi, renungilah kata-kata seorang doktor kepada seorang doctor;

“Sesungguhnya (doktor) yang hidupnya adalah untuk dirinya sendiri tanpa memikirkan orang lain di sekelilingnya dan tidak meletakkan di hadapannya tujuan dakwah yang menggunung, juga tidak melapangkan masanya sejam sahaja dalam seminggu untuk mempelajari ilmu Agama dan menghafaz apa yang patut dari al-Quran, juga tidak memikirkan apa yang perlu dibuat untuk Islam terhadap ilmu perubatan yang dianugerahkan kepadanya, maka keadaannya kadang-kadang banyak rehat, hidup dan matinya dalam keadaan jiwanya kerdil. Adapun doctor yang berjiwa besar yang sanggup memikul tuagasan yang penat ini, Tidak mementingkan urusan tidurnya, waktu rehatnya, berada di atas tilam yang empuk dan kehidupan yang senang lenang disamping harta benda yang memuaskan. Sesungguhnya Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘Alaihiwasallam telah memberitahu keadaan yang sepatutnya dan bersabda kepada Ummul Mukminin Sayyidatina Khadijah: Telah berlalu masa untuk kami tidur wahai Khadijah. Maka kami ingin menyatakan di sini: Telah berlalu masa untuk kamu tidur dan pejam lelap wahai penuntut-penuntut bidang perubatan!”